auto boulot dodo - left coast

urban tribes - i guess this pretty much describes my friends and our social group. i have a lot that i could say about this because having my mom around has definitely caused me to think more about relationships and lifestyles etc. but i have too much work. i guess it's nice to feel busy and useful at work but still... blah, i mean work is supposed to be about idly surfing the web, emailing, and introspection right? one thing that sucks about my mom visiting at this time is i'm just so preoccupied with all of this other shit that i have to do and think about so i feel guilty about not being more entertaining or able to enjoy having her here and doing stuff. also dealing with the whole schultz gang is a little much. i feel too peripheral and like i'm expected to want to do certain things or think they are really fun when that just isn't what i want to do right now. i'm not a big fan of guilt. it's pretty unproductive and shitty.

work... blah. last night was fun! it was a really good amount/mix of people. i think my mom had a good time. so weird to have my mom around my real adult life.

back to work....

listening to: prefuse 73 - one word extinguisher, cannibal ox - the cold vein