auto boulot dodo - left coast

such a good word ... i could use more moxie. oooh i hope my last cd comes from insound.

no song about grand rapids even though it's all about michigan
guess gr isn't so interesting

listening to: rilo kiley - the execution of all things

what i bought:

soymilk
plain yogurt lofat
frozen fruit (mango + smoothie mix)
fresh spinich
whole wheat english muffins
bananas
apples
chicken breasts
uncle bens rice bowls
oj
grapefruit juice
carrots
healthy choice soup (this is really frightening)
other packaged salad

seriously ...
i like healthy food

and strangely enough I am not a fan at all of sweets anymore
not ice cream or chocolate or cake or cookies, i can't imagine wanting to buy them anymore
i only ever eat them if i'm pms'ing or by accident
kind of like when i accidently smoke pot even though i know i actively don't like it


listening to: Ben Gibbard + Andrew Kinney - Home Vol 5. (post-parlo)

It makes me wonder ... U.S. GDP growth revised up to 8.2 percent in third quarter - Nov. 25, 2003 How real is this. The medicare bill is less frightening than i had originally thought. At least there will be some negotiating through the PBMs but why should the govt tie its own hands when it comes to negotiating with drug makers. Political contributions? Personal business ties?

Makes one very cynical about the motives and outcomes of the political process and players.

It also disturbs me that the government is pursuing increased secrecy and burying information that might not put it in a good light. Along with a whole host of other things that disturb/enrage/disgust/sadden me about Bush, his policies, and his administration. I can't think of a single thing he has done in office that i agree with, not a single one.

listening to: yo la tengo - painful

i'm getting very annoyed with diamond ring commercials. i hate the concept of an obligitory diamond engagement ring and i don't think diamonds are that romantic. it's bizarre to me that everyone seems to just accept that as an immutable fact. *if* i ever get engaged i would either not want an engagement ring or i would want something more personal and meaningful.

it also kind of wigs me out that i've started looking for wedding rings on guys i'm checking out

death cab's video for "the new year" was on subterranean this week. pretty cool.

listening to: dcfc - transatlanticism

weekend yay! and a short week next week krazy thanxgiving - going to see 21 grams w/ r

somehow fatalistic futuristic crazy industrial rap seems appropriate to my mood

i got to do some regression with R today. seems powerful, cool like that, but as always it's hard to start out with a new syntax. yay regression and statistics. i want a job that involves more of that and less of this

listening to: el-p - fantastic damage

it's pretty cool that jigga has the same b-day as my bro!

listening to: jolie holland - catalpa

This guy is very cool:

Christof Koch

Visual attention and conciousness research is an area that interests me very much. It's so tangible and relevent to everyday experience. i like that i have a little better understanding of certain features of interaction between myself (esp my brain) and the environment

listening to: postal service

is "drill down" the new fashionable corporate speak. i can't decide whether it gets on my nerves - it may be a useful phrase but the mental image makes me a little uncomfortable

other gems: "deliverable" "action item"

listening to: prefuse 73 - one word extinguisher

do other people find themselves associating certain music with different seasons? winter is always somewhat melancholy but real for me - i listen to more melodic folky music. in the summer i like hip-hop and abrasive bright difficult music.

listening to: the decemberists - castaways and cutouts

anyways ... should it really wig me out so much when my favorite band(s) get prominent reviews in Rolling Stone. It's perverse because I only look at Rolling Stone because i want to see if bands I like are mentioned but then I get uncomfortable when they do.

went to the gym again last night but fortunately didn't get hit on again - there are a lot of things that i had heard - such as LA is full of people in entertainment (uh duh!) and people really do try to hook up at the gym - that didn't affect my life until i started living in the real world of jobs, gyms, adults, and people who didn't go to caltech.

It more and more makes me determined to move out of LA - LA drivers are really starting to piss me off too with their tailgating and stupid huge SUVs with the blinding headlights

listening to: the wrens - the meadowlands

This is just another irritating example of the hypocritical competitive market interference that this so-called free market president is indulging in.

also health care insurance - the health care system in the US bites the big one. honestly why are we the only ones paying for the prescription drug research and advertisement. when is the american public going to get wise to what exactly all this "freedom" is costing them.

rant moan sigh ...

listening to: noe venable - you talkin to me?

> > > 1. First Name? rebecca
> > > >2. Were you named after anyone? rebecca of sunnybrook farm?
> > > >3. Do you wish you had a dog? no way
> > > >4. Which finger is your favorite? index
> > > >5. When did you last cry? a few days ago
> > > >6. Do you like your handwriting? it's ok
> > >
> > > >7. What is your favorite lunch meat? turkey
> > > >8. Any bad habits? plenty
> > > >9.What is your most embarrassing CD? dave matthews band
> > > >10. If you were another person, would YOU be friends w/you? maybe
> > > >11. Are you a daredevil? in some ways
> > > >12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? yes
> > > >13. Do looks matter? yes
> > > >14. How do you release anger? passive aggressive bullshit
> > > >15. Where is your second home? i don't know that i feel like i have
a first home
> > > >16. Do you trust others easily? no
> > > >17. What was your favorite toy as a child? legos
> > > >18. What class in school do you think is totally useless? which
ones don't i think are useless?
> > > >19. Do you have a journal? no
> > > >20. Do you use sarcasm a lot? yes
> > > >21. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? not a real one
> > > >22. What do you look for in a guy/girl? originality
> > > 24. What are your nicknames? fetlock, fuzzy, becky, floyd,
stobosaurus, stobboggon
> > > >25. Would you bungee jump? i would but will I? i'm not so sure
> > > >26. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no
> > > >27. Do you think that you are strong? no
> > > >28. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? coffee, green tea
> > > >29. Shoe Size? 10
> > > >30. What are your favorite colors? grey black blue purple lemon
yellow
> > > >31. What is your least favorite thing? hypocrisy
> > > >32. How many wisdom teeth do you have? none but i did have 5!
> > > >33. How many people have a crush on you right now? more than i
probably know but at least a few i think
> > > >34. Who do you miss most right now? emily, everyone who is far and
seems like they are going to always be far
> > > >35. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back? --
> > > >36. What color pants are you wearing? new bootylicious jeans
> > > >37. What are you listening to right now? nothing but on the drive
i listened to death cab for cutie - you can play these songs with chords
> > > >38. Last thing you ate? coffee, ham and swiss on rye
> > > >39. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? turquoise
> > > >40. What is the weather like right now? sunny but chilly.
> > > >41. Last person you talked to on the phone? dad
> > > >42. The first things you notice about the opposite sex? sexy?
> > > >43. Do you like the person who sent you this? a lot
> > > >44. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? tired, restless
> > > >45. FAVORITE DRINK: orange juice
> > > >46. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? beer, vodka tonic
> > > >47 FAVORITE SPORT? crew (to participate)/figure skating (to watch)
> > > >48. YOUR HAIR COLOR? dirty blond
> > >
> > > >49. YOUR EYE COLOR? blue
> > > >50. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS: yes
> > > >51. SIBLINGS? a younger brother
> > > >52. FAVORITE MONTH? april
> > > >53. FAVORITE FOOD? avocado
> > > >54. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? love, actually
> > > >55. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? different every year
> > > >56. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? yes - very much so
> > > >57. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? no - sometime happy endings are
ok i guess
> > > >58. SUMMER OR WINTER?summer
> > > >59. HUGS OR KISSES? kisses
> > > >60. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? relationships?
> > > 61. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? no
> > > >62. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? --
> > > >]63. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? --
> > > >64. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? very cute 2 bdrm house in woodland hills
with awesome roommate i met through craigslist!
> > > >65. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? pride and prejudice
> 66. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? gel cushion
> > > >67. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? scrabble
> > >
> > > >68. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? reruns of sports night on
comedy central
> > > >69. FAVORITE SMELLS? citrus
> > > >70. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP? bleh -
i need coffee


listening to: office noise

boo i didn't get to watch the OC last night. instead i talked to some friends and started to read pride and prejudice for like the millionth time. apparently dee has many pictures of me making out with people that i have never seen. i'm amused and excited to see her in january. also totally looking forward to visiting miami.

i'm going to try to get to the modern dance class that anna goes to on sunday, that or power yoga.

when did i start to really enjoy running, it is frustrating that i'm in such poor shape that i can only do it for 10 minutes at a time. i think i will try to run more when i go to the gym.

i hope my insound order gets here soon i ordered

CATALPA - HOLLAND,JOLIE
GREETINGS FROM MICHIGAN THE GREAT LAKE STATE - STEVENS,SUFJAN
Room on Fire - The Strokes
Who Will Cut Your Hair When We're Gone - The Unicorns

the strokes on vinyl!!!

i'm going to hang out with ethel tonite yay purple muumu

listening to: the long winters

blah - unproductive conversations everywhere - why do things that should be relatively simple end up being so circuitous and tortured.

going to watch the OC tonight!

looking forward to crazed thanksgiving plans.

listening to: Faultline - Your love means everything